so,today is CNY's Eve.
it's like so sian.
the concert i already seen it for the third time today.
enjoy the dance after band.
not only me.
i think the whole choir enjoyed that the most.
all came out of the D&T room to watch.
the D&T room is so stuffy lah.
can suffocate inside there.
after performing for the upper secs,went back to class and helped with the making of the cards for teachers.
so chiong.haix...
then decided not to go back to primary school.
like not much people go back also lor...
ok lah.maybe this year's sec 1.
but our batch like no much people want to go...
went home - no CNY de qi fen.
slack for some hours.
then got off my bed then helped with last minute's spring cleaning.
and helped put up the chun lian all those.
reunion dinner - ok ok lah.
every year almost same de.
the watched tv,slack,bathed.
haix...
and now i'm watching tv + blogging + thinking about them.
i don't know what to do le...

tried so hard not to let any problems occur.
but it still did.
i mean,problems sure have de lah...
but then now is like only feb lor...
why must it happen now?
now,they're going to enjoy their CNY and i'm not going to enjoy it that much.
CNY = angpaos(+) + sacarstic remarks from cousins,especially the one who's same age as me(-) + trobling over them(-) + cannot sms,not after i sent out the mass-sent CNY sms(-) = (-2)CNY 2008

problem occured
tried so hard to find out from them what's wrong.
tried so hard to trust them(which is ever so rare).
but...
everything i did just go down the drain.
yes,don't know what's wrong.
don't know how to trust them when they doing something so obviously leaving me out yet say nothing.
i mean like,i didn't us them to tell me everything they shared with each other.
but at least do something,like talk to me.
at least i know you all still treat me as your friends.
if you all doesn't want me as your friend anymore,just say so.
don't treat me as a toy ok?
i'm a human with emotion just like any human being out there.
don't let me follow you guys stupidly yet not know that i'm nothing but a pest.
i don't mean that you all are this kind of heartless people.
i just want you all to see how deep it has affected me.
but anyway,anbody reading this will feel that i am insulting you guys...

haix...
not even sure if anybody is reading this anyway...
i'm gonna change my URL.
and blogskin.
and maybe i changing it to only for invited readers.
sigh...
forget it.
gonna transfer some songs to handphone and get away from here.
getting more and more emo here.

simple.not complicated. 11:35 pm